Looking back, looking forward

Writing the blog about some of the "Things I love" got me thinking about some of the "Things I miss" and the "Things I'm Looking Forward To." Don't get me wrong - I love my sweet Eleanor and Rose more than anything! Any normal person, however, would feel, as I do, a sense of loss of one's pre-baby life and goals! To be honest, I MISS my old life!

• I miss my friends in New York
• I miss Brooklyn
• I miss walking around the city in the evening after work
• I miss carousing on the subway with my happy gang of friends
• I miss wandering through Central Park with Cap
• I miss working in my museum, knowing that Cap was working at his museum across Central Park
• I miss savoring my tea and toast for breakfast on a quiet early morning
• I miss being able to have long, uninterrupted conversations with my sister, sometimes serious, but mostly hilarious
• I miss pretty much anything that involved having time by myself (guilt free)
  

I know that in many ways most of the things I miss will return over time, and that I should appreciate this time with my little girls, I know I know I know... but just for now, I'm missing the old way.

On the other hand, there are lots of thing I'm looking forward to.

• I can't wait to start traveling again!
• I'm looking forward to buying a used RV, renovating it, and driving across the USA with Cap and our kiddies
• I'm looking forward to taking Eleanor and Rose to Europe
• I'm looking forward to working more
• I'm looking forward to having time to do my personal art and design projects (not just the ones I do for work)
• I'm looking forward to all the great conversations I know that I will have with Eleanor and Rose as they get older
• I'm looking forward to reuniting with all my friends from New York without having to worry about putting babies to sleep at night
• I'm looking forward to going to the movies again

Ah, there's a lot I am looking forward to.

But, then again, there are great things happening each day. Today, on Rose's 4-month birthday, she showed real signs of sitting up all by herself! Oh the sweetness of it.

This photo is terribly dark but I hope you can see the cuteness shining through!