Feelin' Blue

How do you type in a big ol' sigh? I mean a big long tired sigh. I'm tired. I haven't written any posts in quite a while because I'm having a hard time keeping up with all the things I have to do to maintain some normalcy in my life. I prefer to live in a house that is relatively clean, not the hovel that it seems to be every night when I go to bed. So I spend countless hours picking up after everyone and doing laundry and dishes, but it is a losing battle. The messes and the dishes and the laundry are winning. I prefer to have some space in my brain for quiet thoughts. So I try to get Eleanor and Rose out of the house for a few hours every day, but by the time I get home my head is ringing with the endless talking and singing and yelling. So, the noise is winning. I prefer to eat fresh meals and I love to cook, but with all messes, and the noise, and the endless demands to play in the living room, I end up heating up food that I don't even really like eating. And, I would really like to write my thoughts down in peace... but it's time to cook dinner, and Rose is crying. So, I'm feeling blue, or really, grey, since I like the color blue and I don't feel much like that beautiful color.